naaaassssttttyyyy

haha.. i still got a hang-over . (literally).. it was such a get-together-turned-nasty-partying thing.. oh well, i guess that's life really has to be.. hayyy... at least i got the chance to chit chat with my bestfriend. NOTE: the following just popped out of my mind as i write this blog. some are fictional characters.hehe OCEAN'S APART it's not the song by the way.. it's my bestfriend's ocean.hehe.. it's been awhile since i haven't heard from them and i am just sooo happpy hearing for the first time that my dear sister has already broke up with that dirty man. aha, do i sound rude? hell yeah, he really is.. i have reprimanded her many times but she didn't listen, now i am elated coz the whole situation has finally got into her nerves and zapped her back to reality.. this is really great! i've been waiting for this to happen for let's just say, months now,.cheese burger! ahaha.. MY ANGEL it has been years since i last saw him and by twist of fate, i got to see him again, now, closer than i could ever imagine. oh well, i guess it's not the taste and aura of the liquor which makes me static, maybe it's because of the chance of getting near to him. I idolized him since i was a child (literally.haha) but i never did think of approaching him or even trying to be close to him personally. Way back then, he was just a cute guy from the kingdom who i often see. i can say he's a heart rob yet, not that infamous because of his nature, timid. i know many of us had a crush on him but all of us were just three steps behind his princess, who never did show any sign of concern for him. pity you my angel. But things changed, his princess had long been residing in another's knight's palace , they never saw each other again leaving my angel hopeless yet handsome. Whew! years have passed and he's been light years away considering that i was never an inch close to him, ever. That's why i can't believe i was holding him in my arms that day. Nasty, yes, but with semi-pure intention, why semi? it's because i still have doubts, i do. What if this won't last? what if this is just a part of the partying? How could i move on? haha.. fling.. yeah, that's the right term. can i really do that? well, what can i do, he's attractive. he's my angel remember? seriously speaking, i want him, not because of what he is but because of what he can be through my help. I don't intend to play with him just to have fun, i know my priorities, i know my goals and i am not sure if playing is really the right thing to do. It can be serious in any how that's why i'm waiting for him. Would he consider that as a start? or was that merely some sort of a game which started and ended the same day the party took place? i do not know why, but normally i would not feel this way. YEs i admit, this happened many times,I as a hopeless lunatic confused of what's going on in and out of me but i think, yes i think, this is something special, different from those that occurred in the past. haha.. maybe i'm just overacting but i really feel weird. Will he remember me when he wakes up? will he remember the tight hug he gave me? or will he just forget all of those, dump them as he throw up and dump those stuff he took in? although this is not a formal thing, and this is a close-to-impossible dream, i will still wait for my angel and call him mine until he comes and asks me to be his.