bitternessss

He boldly stood in the midst of the crowd with his hands digging into his satchel. The relentless atmosphere seemed to obliterate the tranquility of his being; however, his distinctive character inevitably glimmered and eventually altered the wearisome and unmitigated environment. It may seem enigmatic but that’s him, so mystical with his fervor so intense that I couldn’t refrain from staring at his diffident yet very strong character.

There are so many things I love about this knight of mine. I love the manner he talks, the way he exposes his winsome smile and the way he looks at me with his tantalizing eyes. The sincerity of his looks tells a thousand words like a silhouette of a portrait painted with relish and fervor. His faith in the Creator stands still, with no ostentation and hypocrisy. His credo in life is so intricate, that is “Don’t believe in your doubts and don’t doubt your beliefs.” That’s him, the inner him.

His expression of love seems to succumb all his endeavors in life. He is so sympathetic that he even gives me the last bite of his burger. He cheers me up when I’m anxious and melancholic but he doesn’t console me whenever I cry. He doesn’t even dry my tears but instead, he cries with me, also vexed and stricken. He doesn’t offer help whenever I’m distressed but rather emboldens me to strive harder and helps me straightened the folds. These are his antics, so simple yet so complex. It will be plain stupidity on my part if I will not be proud of what I have- it’s him, someone I can call a man rather than a boy.

I know he astounds the woman in me. His whole personality enthralls my senses with his sweet antics continuously reverberating in the sound of my consciousness. Actually, I’m still mystified, with "how?" and "why?" always crossing my mind. I don’t know what’s in his character that makes every scenario with him a knee-quivering and a breath-taking one. He might have cast a spell on me or he owns that magical wand capable of altering the entire world of mine. Whatever reason may be said about this labyrinth, one thing is for sure, God is the planner and He destined him to play a part of my life that is to be what he is now: Les sen figuré de mes vie- the enchanter of my life.

I DIDN'T EXPECT I COULD STILL USE THIS DARN ARTICLE IVE WRITTEN LLLOOOONNGGGG TIME AGO.. DAMN! HAHAHA... IF NOT BECAUSE OF PHILO 10 I WILL NEVER APPRECIATE MYSELF THIS KIND OF STUPIDITY. OH WELL, SEEMS LIKE I REALLY CAN'T ESCAPE FROM MY PAST.. THIS IS MY LAST BLOW.. I PROMISE...

BY THE WAY, MY MOM TOOK THE EXAM.. I BET SHE'S STILL IN THE MIDST OF THIS CHAOTIC DAMN EXAMINATION. A TEST FOR INTELLIGENCE I SUPPOSE, THE ONLY HOPE WE COULD GET IN ORDER FOR US TO GET OUT OF THIS PIT WE ARE IN.. YES, HAHA... BUT IM STILL HAPPY COZ I KNOW GOD LOVES US.. WELL WELL WELL, SPEAKING OF FAITH..YEAH! IM GOING TO ATTEND THE SERVICE! AHAHAHAH! YESSSS!!!!1

SO PANO NA? ILL BLOG NEXT WEEK. I NEED ALL MY BLOGS TO MATURE .. WHY? IT'S A DEEP SECRET..HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHA.. *EVIL..

after the storm

ive been thinking about herbalife lately. when will i be a successful herbalifer? i should start working now, i badly need a laptop..

im kinda busy because of this chem report plus the bannuar stuff... i have to excel this sem to pull my grades up. wat should i do to manage my time? Lord please help me.. oh, by the way, im looking for people who need my help.those who want to lose their weight! ahahahhaha...

i did not attend the service yesterday because of the typhoon. sad...

not in my standards

i have a hard time making myself comfortable with my previous acad partner . Maybe, social status and interests really matter and that my standards for friendship made it really hard for me to go along with that person so well. Unfortunately, this atrocity intimidates me again. I have a new acad partner, a lot of them say that this one is just right for me, for this dude is better than the former one, but after a week of working, i realized, it's worse.hahah! if before, all i could fuss about is the pride and overconfidence that fills the atmosphere, now i could sense the autocrat inside this dude. too bad, i can't deal with this properly. I believe i am a leader and my style of leadership is proven effective. With the current situation, it seems like i am trapped in a situation where i should choose between others and myself. Should i be good enough to accept her and be the one to adjust? or should i confront this for me to have a leeway on things in the future, especially that we will be working together in almost all activities?

You know, there are so many things that bother , excite and burden me right now... I feel bothered because i know, i really should study harder this time.. my easy-going style won't apply especially that i have set higher goals for this semester. It burdens me that i couldn't bring out the best of me, i am struggling so hard to revive the activeness and energy that i had before , that helped me to feel confident, confident enough to accomplish all my tasks and short-term goals. How would i do it this time?

God gave me another opportunity. Yes, He gave me herbalife. I am looking forward to earning great sum of money while achieving my goals in the academic arena. Yes, it's true that i've been a business freak lately, and i feel bad whenever they tell me to stop aspiring and running for money when all i want for is for me to acquire all the things that i need and i want in life; that i want to help my family and that i want to show the world that although i have been filthy and been mouthed in the past, i could succeed. YES, this might be a wrong perspective and having this makes me think of others judging me as impractical and mean. What can i do? it's the only thing i could do to refute all their generalizations and judgments. I am not going to give in, i am going to succeed...that, i promise myself...

i want a job!!!

there's this job my friend was offering me.. actually the benefits are good.! it's a live-in tutorial .. Here's the agreement, i have to live there, help the kids study english on weekdays , i will get paid 6k a month , and i will have a private laundry woman plus all the meals are free!!! isn't great?!

too bad, my parents won't allow me..well, i understand them, they don't understand the Korean culture and so as i.hahah,. but the kids are smart and they're really tamed so there won't be any problem, i suppose.. now my problem is, i chose to stay-out and the transportation going home from work burdens me. my mom told me to quit but how could I? my allowance ain't enough and i know they can't give more than they're giving me especially now that my brother is already in college, the attention and all the resources are now divided... im just doing my best to help and and to sustain my lifestyle. is it bad???? i'm not compromising my studies, sure thing i never will..

what should i do now? should i find other job? what now?? my blog hasn't matured yet so i can't get money out of it yet... wow.. what a problem..hayy. how i wish i could really get a job, a really easy job.. oohh, by the way, i even joined herbalife! hahaha... i'm really desperate..

sunday's blessings

im so blessed today, it's father's day and ive already greeted my dad and relatives.. hmm..

WOw! it's great that i had time to attend the sunday service, it was really fun! i had a great time worshiping the Lord and making all things clear and easy for me. the message was all about forgiveness and love for enemies,. oh well, i guess it's high time for me to let go of all these bitterness and start a new and peaceful life. yeah, i will already forgive those who did wrong, but in case of money matters, of course ill still let them pay..haha... uhm.. i was moved by the message of the ptr., forgive me but i forgot his name, hehe.. any way, here's the verse i loved most, ooppss.. i forgot the book and chapter. sorrryyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

let those who oppose you bring the best and not the worst of you. pray for all those who reject and persecute you...

amen! hayy,, it's really a great day! yeah, this is really great!

i have paper works to do so,, til next time....

bringing down the house

sorry, i dunno why i chose to adopt the title of the book from which the movie 21 was based from..i guess, i still have a hang-over.. ahaha., by the way, classes started yesterday, and here are the major happenings in each subject...

BIO 11 lec

oh my gosh! RRR! i guess we got the wrong professor for our very first major subject. some say, she's really intelligent but really disciplined and strict. well, i guess this is a major challenge for this semester. i do hope i could prove my worth this time,. help me..

BIO 11 lab

boring.haha... coz our lab prof didnt show up, a substitute took her place, hot hot hot! it's scorching hot inside the lab. i can't concentrate.. arrggh!

PE

it's fine..except that i will play with the people i don't want to be with since i was in kalay..

PHILO 10

alright, i was waiting for the infamous prof. mendoza, but he didn't show up, instead a fresh grad, a magna cum from the philo dept too k his place. Honestly, it was a major shock knowing that prof. mendoza dropped the course and took his leave, leaving us with a fresh grad who i do not know, obviously.haha,... anyway, he's really crazy!!! he talks too much about love and stuff.. haha,,..

CHEM16 lab

fresh grad again! awwttsss.. why in this world did i happen to be in a class where the conios are all gathered? duh.. like ... i d0nt want to work with them..

CHEM 16 lec

oopss.. strange, old, funny but kind professor, i guess, i will love this chem class,, i really will.hahah

MP10

he's so funny.. and when you saw him first, you would think he's a student, perhaps a freshie with his big backpack and a bottle of water, his shirt wet with sweat! hahah.. he's really funny ! he reminds me of my cousin , my chubby cuz...

ARCHAEO 2

he didnt show up... where are you anthony?

this will be a nice sem.. i could feel my victory!!!! hahah.. here i come! and im now ready to bring down the house.

enrollment.duh?

hahaha.. im enrolled! 18 units.hahha
here are my subjects:
bio11
chem26
chem 26.1
archaeo2
philo10
mp10..

weeeeeeeeeeeee!
i know this will be a greater sem! ahhha go for US!