not in my standards

i have a hard time making myself comfortable with my previous acad partner . Maybe, social status and interests really matter and that my standards for friendship made it really hard for me to go along with that person so well. Unfortunately, this atrocity intimidates me again. I have a new acad partner, a lot of them say that this one is just right for me, for this dude is better than the former one, but after a week of working, i realized, it's worse.hahah! if before, all i could fuss about is the pride and overconfidence that fills the atmosphere, now i could sense the autocrat inside this dude. too bad, i can't deal with this properly. I believe i am a leader and my style of leadership is proven effective. With the current situation, it seems like i am trapped in a situation where i should choose between others and myself. Should i be good enough to accept her and be the one to adjust? or should i confront this for me to have a leeway on things in the future, especially that we will be working together in almost all activities?

You know, there are so many things that bother , excite and burden me right now... I feel bothered because i know, i really should study harder this time.. my easy-going style won't apply especially that i have set higher goals for this semester. It burdens me that i couldn't bring out the best of me, i am struggling so hard to revive the activeness and energy that i had before , that helped me to feel confident, confident enough to accomplish all my tasks and short-term goals. How would i do it this time?

God gave me another opportunity. Yes, He gave me herbalife. I am looking forward to earning great sum of money while achieving my goals in the academic arena. Yes, it's true that i've been a business freak lately, and i feel bad whenever they tell me to stop aspiring and running for money when all i want for is for me to acquire all the things that i need and i want in life; that i want to help my family and that i want to show the world that although i have been filthy and been mouthed in the past, i could succeed. YES, this might be a wrong perspective and having this makes me think of others judging me as impractical and mean. What can i do? it's the only thing i could do to refute all their generalizations and judgments. I am not going to give in, i am going to succeed...that, i promise myself...