going home..

8:00 am got awaken by the nagging of mah brotha... arrgghhh.. how could i ever sleep so well?"??!!! and how could i wake up so early knowing that i can't watch a dvd or even a simple program in the tv? there's no current! and sad to say, it'd take 2 months before the electric company could restore the darn electricity.. 9:00 am i am ready to leave,... i got so many things to do.. yes, i really do .. i have to go and find a decent venue for our debate seminar.. but wait a minute.. aren't we leaving yet?? Dad is not in the good mood.. there's too much damages in our compound.. i understand it'd take a lot of man power and of course money to fix all the mess.. but he shouldn't be shouting at us.. he shouldn't be diverting his annoyance to us.. it pisses me off.. 11:00 am at last, we're leaving.. oh no, money problems.. how i wish i could really make money this time.. i mean, money.. from work.. yeah, i wanna work so i could help my dad and my mom in providing for our family's needs.. arggh! i can't wait to be an adult. 18, per say.hahah... 11:30 am bound to socony, riding an aircon bus.. all of a sudden, heavy rain poured down,,. it was such a nice feeling ... but the bubble burst out when i saw what's outside,.. people running, trying to save their money.., rice stalks scattered on the road, waiting to be saved from flooding... darn! how i wish i could help them.. what could i do? i am just a student, i am not rich... i thought that would be the last thing that would make me feel helpless.. but as i stare outside, all i could see is a picture of a distorted community.. what a h*! the typhoon was really that bad!, really bad! i could still remember how i cried in prayer asking God to stop the heavy rain and strong gusts of wind which made our trees swayed to death ,all of them uprooted. i could still remember the feeling of trying to calm my little sister because she's so afraid of the thumping of the windows and heaving ticking of the raindrops.. i could still remember how our workers watched 24 hours outside, making sure, no tree that surrounds our house would collapse with us sleeping inside... i could still remember that strong feeling of anxiety and worry because mom is still on the road, going back home.. and i could still remember my angst.,although not that gruesome, i felt when my dad is nowhere to be found and did not go home just because he went on a gig together with his friends.. well, no one expected the typhoon would be like that, yeah.. but he should have stayed at home....right? 1:00 pm im trying to relax.. we're in the mall.. we ate lunch but then i remembered, i still got lots of work to do.. and so i left and went to inquire in diff. hotels.. what did i get?? HEADACHE!...where in this world could we get 320k in a month?? and what could i do to save money? waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh! this stresses me.. i have to go home.. 7:00 pm i am at home at last.. it's good, we have electricity here.. it's good, i am not that worried anymore and it's good i zapped back to my senses and didn't forget the promises i kept within my hands.. promises of someone who i know will never leave me.. i smile as i make this blog.. i know He's smiling too.. but more than that, i know by now, i have the solutions to these problems and the answers to my questions on the way, waiting for me....