Just when i started asking why

alright, here i am in a net shop far from the original IT, trying to waste my time in this stupid post. Oh well, i was really trying hard to console myself with the idea that i am with a cousin, and that i will have a free ride back home. I was really trying hard to forget what happened last night but then things pushed me to the limits. I couldn't wait for all my questions to be answered. Why why why. Why did i end up this way?i thought i was strong enough to withstand all these things which kept on taunting me yet i was wrong. No matter how many times people tell me i'm smart, i know i could always prove them wrong. shit! i'm not making any sense. all i want to say is i'm madly 'in love' and he's not in love with me, and that he will never be..